This is my whole life.
story of my life!
Okay sorry guys for the massive rant before!! I was pretty pissed.
But HE REPLIED. only cos i’ve decided to rant it to a mutual friend. He’s agreed to meeting up tuesday after i finish work and talking about it.
GAWD. so many troubles with him!!! it’s actually all his fault for this.
But just to admit i’m kind of shy to see him on tuesday!!! He’s gonna pick me up after work.. and i finish work at 8pm. In text facebook and everything i’m fine to chat to it’s just face to face.
WISH ME LUCK!!!
An excuse being drunk and being hacked is not good enough.
So I liked this guy right, he’s moody as hell ( I accepted that he’s moody and even put up with it)and knew i thought he was cute, a few nights back he asked if i still liked him through text, and said we should meet up catch up and stuff, he sounded interested!! BUT little did i know he claimed that he was hacked. Which doesn’t make sense at all cos it was through his fone and he sent a selfie to me.. and it was him!!! I seriously thought he was different to all the guys. He claimed that he as hacked. I’m confused BECAUSE, if he’s hacked why would he be avoiding me now?
I think he just doesn’t wanna admit that he was drunk and was sort of interested in me too so he used “hacked” as an excuse. But from me seeing and knowing that he’s not a good guy. I’m so fucking glad you’re not our security guy anymore. I’m actually pissed to the point if i saw you i would slap you.
What kind of a guy does that plays with me knowing that i had a crush on him. A dick head like him obviously.
I gave him chocolates, and macarons as a going away present from leaving work.
What was i thinking.
Paining my nails red, watching TVB, heater on and eating chocolates.
the best way to spend a friday day in… but tonight it’s when it’s happening ;)
You’re leaving work!!!
I can’t belive it.
no more going into work half an hour early just to talk to you.
no more checking you out while i work LOL.
it’s been good working with you.
thanks for the random chats it’s always been good. making me laugh and all.
all the best for your future and promise to keep in touch.
okay what the freak.
what kind of a guy comes back and says he want to see you again
and you don’t hear from him again???
it’s been a few days since we talked… and here i am waiting for him to contact again…
An asshole? Mayybee.
If he doesn’t contact me within a week or so. I’m giving up on him. I don’t want to be hurt again.
MAKE UP UR MIND. DON’T PLAY WITH MY EMOTIONS.
No way am i doing the chasing this time.
ohmyfg this is my weaknes
omfg yes please
After a year. He came back.
Shows up on my balcony, saying sorry for the shit in the past, and wants to see me agian. At 4am in the morning.
What did i do? Invite him in and we chatted.
Talked for two hours regarding the shit in the past that happened. As soon as i saw him, there was all these tension emotions that i felt while talking to him that made me want to accept him back. And such an stupid thought I did.
He left me a note on my desk just in case I wouldn’t be awake or at home to accept him back.
I don’t know what to do.
I still think about the shits in the passed that has happened.
I’ve got friggen over it and then a year later he shows up at my house. My room. And makes me think about this all over again.
A part of me still wants to see him, a part of me knows it’s wrong.
And I shouldn’t even be blogging about this.
We kissed. Made up.
But now here I am thinking I shouldn’t cos of how he hurt me in the past, and i’m scared he’ll hurt me again. He’s a dick but at the same time, I want him too.
I’m in such a confused spot. I never knew he’d come back. SOO surprised and shocked!!!
There’s just to much that has happend in the past for me to forget.